The battle between motivation and apathy is real. Like anything in life, there is always light and darkness. Apathy is just a motivation shadow.
We only need motivation because we are prone to apathy. The truth is they are not two, they are one. Motivation would be out of a job if it weren’t for apathy.
We get so tangled up trying to prevent ourselves becoming apathetic or lethargic. So we create ideas, concepts and stories about why we are doing what we are doing, or why we are feeling what we are feeling.
All experiences come and go. That feeling, that thought, the apathy, the motivation, all of them are an experience. Often we think we need a reason to do things. It causes people so much unnecessary suffering, because we don’t do things for a reason, we do them for experience!
The bottom line is, you don’t need a reason, you don’t owe anyone an explanation of why, it only needs to make sense to you, and it can only ever make sense to you anyway. People always ask though, right? Why are you doing that?
Then you go looking for a reason and come up with a whole lot of trippy bullshit about why, because you think that’s what they want to hear. I’m doing this because:
But that’s not entirely true, we are really doing it because we want to experience it. That’s intimate, it’s not a reason, it’s experienced and felt.
If we attach a reason to an experience, we become unmotivated, depressed and anxious because the experience of life becomes all about reasons.
So, yea, you attach the reason to the experience and become unmotivated. Then you exhaust yourself trying to find more reasons for the flatness you are feeling. The truth is that there are no reasons for sport and life. It just is, and experience just is.
If you enjoy it, then just do it. Life is an experience, my friend. It’s made of love. Yes, the same love you feel for your husband, wife and family. You don’t need a reason to love them, right?
Do what you love, love what you do!